Beautiful friends! This post is long, but I really want to share the HUGE ecstatic experience I had last Saturday! As you’ll read in a minute, I know that the biggest part of you already knows about it! (We are all one consciousness!) But I’m going to share it with your personality too! And honestly, selfishly, by sharing it with you, I get to re-live it a little bit!
So, as part of my morning practice, I was feeling into my future life. The biggest component of all my personal visions for the future is that I KNOW myself as love. I always start by imagining myself standing with my hands on some kind of balcony railing or low wall, looking out over a gorgeous view and feeling myself radiating love effortlessly, just because I now know it is me. It is All. I feel myself fountaining love, being love, and having a felt sense of that experience radiating into all things. It washes over me, emanates from me, it is me and I am completely aware of my wholeness. I am aware that All things are in one, whole, and that wellbeing is the true reality. I stand there as Divine wellbeing and Divine Union. And because I truly know it, I naturally make that frequency more accessible and real for all people and things. AND I feel life itself adoring me back. It’s all one.
When I envision this, I usually tap into a fair amount of emotion in that moment of meditation. But on Saturday morning the vision came and TOOK me. I was completely flooded with so much bliss and ecstasy that I started sobbing and laughing at the same time. The Vision was visioning ME. It felt like it was informing me and expanding my consciousness about this reality. The “intelligent ecstasy” started revealing to me little – and big – details that were new to my vision, and each one sent new waves of wild joy and tears through me. Regardless of big or small, every one of them sent bursts of radical bliss through me because they were so perfect and I hadn’t ever envisioned those specifics before. Things that I or other people in the vision said, details about the way things looked, about or the environment I was in. And other very real, “big” knowings were “downloaded” into me about the quality, effect and psycho-spiritual-somatic experience of actually living that kind of love. My body and being experienced how it would be to co-radiate that love with a partner and others in my life…. On and on! It was like angels running around, striking bells of rejoicing in my body! Waking up frequencies and activating them in me.
Whatever I experienced in the vision itself, I was actually feeling “real time” as I sat there in the chair! It just kept coming in waves! The vision, and all that love, all that bliss and felt experience wouldn’t turn loose of me. The vision “kept me” focused on it and all its details for a good 45 minutes. Then the specifics of the images themselves drifted away and I was left in a massive field of pure ecstasy. I just sobbed and laughed and was in an altered state for most of the day. It faded and returned me to “regular” reality by late afternoon, but I was still vaguely unfocused.
This is almost an incidental side note: In that Oneness, I was aware of EVERYTHING. I was effortlessly aware that I stood in the endless field, the infinite existence of All Things. Almost lazily and out of vague curiosity, I tuned in to All–Health. Just being curious and giving it some thought, Health came into focus and emerged out of the field – distinguishable from the rest of the All for a moment, but it really was just one of the faces of inseparable Wholeness. The awareness of health flooded my body, dancing and playing! But nothing was “healed” because I was already whole of course. Again, out of a mild curiosity, I turned my attention to the inherent wealth aspect of All Things. Like health, the infinity of abundance came into focus, showing its obvious eternal presence. I had no need for these things. In the state of ecstatic Oneness I knew with cellular certainty that these things were already fact. Kind of like knowing full well that we are surrounded in air and breathing all the time, and yet deciding to take a deep breath on purpose. Miraculous! And it’s simultaneously no big deal. That’s just how it is. Never ending miraculousness, bliss, love, health, wealth, and, and, and…. is the true norm.
At one point my brain popped in with the urge to call several folks and tell them. But it instantaneously struck me as a completely hilarious, ridiculous idea!! It just sent me into more laughter and sobs of joy. I knew that calling anyone was so completely unnecessary since we are already one!
I can generate feeling with the best of them, but THIS level of being VISITED by bliss has only ever happened once before. I called it my “walk of ecstasy,” which I was gifted with when I went to Maui a couple of years ago. That one came very unexpectedly, without me having sat down to participate in any kind of conscious spiritual practice! And THAT one had me sobbing and laughing for about 5 hours, then turned me loose into “functional” bliss for about 3 days. It faded the day after I got home.
“Functional bliss.” I guess that’s pretty much what I’m aiming for! So that the “altered state” that I experienced last Saturday becomes common. The “norm.” They say there’s no roof to ecstasy and joy. Imagine the new heights of bliss they could come visit if my altered state was every day ecstasy!
I’ve been engaging in some new-to-me spiritual practices that I am sure helped open me so that I could fully receive the gorgeous experience last Saturday. I’ll try to post soon and share some of those in case those sound useful to you too.
In the meantime, SO MUCH LOVE to you all!
As my dear friend Ruth says: This is our Oneness made visible in a really beautiful way!!
More soul-full experiments that return us to the truth of who we are – One.
“Sometimes a thing needs to be retaught its loveliness.”
— Thomas Merton
I recently found these quotes in a book I am reading called Loveability,by Robert Holden. I love them because they describe what I do. I reteach folks (put them back into contact with) their unique, eternal loveliness. We forget how truly Divine and perfect we are, AS we are. Right now. I love to remind you (and me) about that.
For as long as I can remember, I have consciously worked to “unfold” myself. I keep opening myself to being as “Christina” as I can. Why? Because I have an inherent knowing that it is my function in the Universe to be the particular, lovely expression of God that I am. (Fill in the word of your choosing if you don’t like the word God. Who cares what we call the unnamable anyway…?!) I’ve had lots of conditioning that has created blocks to me knowing my “loveliness.” But even as I tango with those blocks, I know they aren’t real. I’ve gathered a pretty fantastic bag of tools to help me reorient to the truth. And because putting myself back into contact with my loveliness – and expanding into that – is my whole focus in life, that’s of course what I created as my “job” with others. With all YOU eternal lovelies! It’s agonizing to forget your own eternal, gorgeous nature and to think anything less than loving thoughts about yourself. And I can so EASILY see how magnificent each of YOU are!
So I hope this new doodle helps you reconnect with sublimely loving thoughts about yourself and your own value as a beautiful expression of the Indivisible One! May we remember that we are love, we are loving and we most certainly are LOVED!
I love YOU!