Intimate with myself,
All these
Moments and phases, all these seasons and parts that I
Hold, honor and cherish. I
Own them here.  Not lost or displaced. Not flung to the outer.
My dear Self. I am home in my arms, whatever this
Essence of me is. Whatever the changing forms, Oh my
Name is beautiful !!!   
            Even though my voice cannot truly speak it,
            I can feel the realness of me. I know the realness of me. 
Orienting now, I steer inward and home –
            No. I stand inward and home – to the
Wholeness I have always been and always will be.

~~~~
Happy homecoming to us all,
Chris

I really hope you hear this. This conversation that I shared with a client was her experience, but it’s yours, too.  This took place in a text conversation. Rather than try to recreate it or give you my version of it, I asked her for her permission to share it…….
 
Here are our texts:
 
Beautiful Client Person:
“…..We went through a big rough patch with my son last week and I was thinking it might be helpful for my husband and I to talk with you so we could get a better idea of how to navigate with him. My son and I had a really interesting moment when he was telling me things that I wished I wasn’t hearing. I just asked myself in that moment what your response would be, and it helped lead to a really beautiful moment…..”
 
Chris:
“Wow. That sounds so powerful. That whole exchange and the whole upwelling of “content” and the way you were able to talk with him and work with it.  That’s wonderful for all of you.  It seems like every time you go through one of these situations with your family, your skills in navigating it create it as more of a bonding experience for you all….? That’s what it seems like from over here.
 
It also seems like it’s giving YOU confidence in your ability to dig in and find your own truth in there. Even if you use the imagination of what I would say as your doorway to your own wisdom.  That’s actually the truth, you know?  Who knows what I would’ve actually said? But it opens door and gets you feeling in and connected to your own wisdom.  I just want you to know that that’s what’s happening.  You were connecting to YOU. To your OWN connection to wisdom.  So gorgeous…..”
 
Sessions with me are just doorways to have your own wisdom come into the room. They are a special lens that gives you your own access point and way to Connect.  You hear something I say (which is often some reflection of what YOU just said) and you hear your own truth. You recognize it.  It resonates deep inside with that mechanism we all have that guides us.  We can FEEL the truth.  We have the ability to do that.
 
So whether it is in sessions, in a poem or passage of a book you are reading, in the oracle deck of cards you are using, in a hummingbird at the window, a butterfly or dragonfly showing up at a particular moment, something a friend said……… all of these things were just the vehicle. 
 
We just know things. We feel it if it’s true for us.  Wisdom will keep showing up for you, and it’ll flow in through any opportunity, image symbol, conversation that speaks to what is right for YOU.
 
Whenever I write these emails I am of course talking to YOU.  All of you and each one of you, specially.  I hope you resonate with this conversation – that you can really take in that YOU have access to your own knowing.  And that it is fine to use anything you like, and accept Wisdom knowing in any form that it comes in. It’s not about how it arrives – you recognize it by how it feels inside.  But it is always there, always showing up for you, always available.   
 
You are powerful, magical and you really do “got this,” everyone.
 
Loving you so much,
Chris

You now know
that it’s safe to feel anything.
You know you can let the intense sensation,
discomfort, “anxiety” be there
without you exploding or the world ending.
You don’t have to eat, buy, hide, 
pick a fight, people-please or beat yourself up
to make the feeling go away.
You know you can let it be there.
It’s not permanent. Somehow
the energy usually changes.
But even if it doesn’t, it doesn’t kill you.
You’re fine.
You can handle it.
It’s not the panic situation you thought it was.
You know better.

You know better.
You.
Now that is interesting.

Who are You
that knows better?
That experiences thoughts and sensations rolling through?
Who is present and can actually feel the difference 
between those temporary energy pressures 
and this You that is lasting and true?

Who is that Presence?
Who is that Being?
What does that feel like?
What is that essence?

Energy, feelings and habit
all come and go.
Deeper than that,
who are you?
Who is in your body walking from the bedroom to the kitchen? 
Getting ready for work? 
Listening to your spouse?
Picking up the cup?  
Looking at the sky?
Who are you,
Present and seeing through your eyes,
in your way
from birth to right now – now
when you are waking up and realizing 
that there is a grand, unique You-ness that’s walking around in your body?
Turn toward that
and walk in that shining direction.

~~~~~~
I see You.

Love, always,
Chris

Winter Solstice

Stillness is necessary
while deep
invisible movements
prepare for the Spring.
Time to turn your vision inward
and let it drift
and rest
in the starry void of
Infinite Possibilities.

The image and writing is from my Comfort Coloring Book

Letter From Chris

Hi beautiful person. Thank you for reading this.

What I really want to say in this moment is that I love you.  It’s winter solstice and there are so many things I could write that I think might be beautiful or helpful.  But really, I just want to say I love you. 

I love you.  I really, really love you.  Each of you. And YOU, specifically, reading this.  You may have no idea how wonderful my life is because our hearts are connected.  I hope you do know, though. I hope you can feel how meaningful it is when you share with me.  You share your pain, confusion, grief and terrifying thoughts and feelings. Sometimes in the same breath you also share your moments of profound revelations. Or you share something about the strength you are finding in yourself or seeing in someone else. You share your triumphant, human experiences, your joys, how you were brought to your knees by beauty or love or understanding something new.  We laugh and we cry together because we are moved by what you are experiencing – the whole spectrum.  The whole spectrum of what it is like to be alive and human. 

We share our humanity – all of it.  I feel a lump in my throat and chest as I write this.  I am totally in awe of being alive with you and getting to see YOUR human journey. Every one of you is gorgeous to me in a way that is so much bigger than words can express.  My life is rich, connected and filled with possibilities because you share your perspectives.   Because you share your own, unique but universal wisdom with me.  I am so graced by this. Thank you. 

I wish I could hug you right now. I wish you could see my face and feel my heart.  I wish I could somehow express the enormity of this joy you bring me. I do this work because of you.  Well, I do the same work internally for me.  I do it because of our bravery, our willingness to look at things in a new way and because we are choosing to let ourselves out of boxes that we mistakenly put ourselves in. You help me get out of my own boxes. Because how could I not be helped when I hear your insights, feel your awe and love pouring out of you as you walk your life?  I do this work inside for me and with each of you in your journeys because to me it is maybe the most powerful, meaningful thing in life: to be able to share the human experience in an honest, heart connected way. I do this work for the sharing, for the heart connection. For being in life together.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.  My life is so tremendous, so soul-smilingly, radiantly gorgeous because you share with me.  Together we feel some kind of Larger Presence.  Love. Intelligence. And we have access to it so much more easily through our sharing of it. 
Thank you. That is what I want to say today. Thank you and I love you so much.  I would not be the same without you. My life would not be so alive, so sublime without you.  And it is sublime, awe-inspiring, graced, deeply pleasurable, even as it co-exists with my own challenges and mundane, day-to-day human stuff. But maybe that is my point. All of the rough stuff is exquisite too.  I see how beautiful it is in you, which helps me see it in me.

Thank you. I love you.  I hope you are celebrating this time of year, whatever it means to you. I hope you are celebrating your own sublime life, because it is so clear to me that it is. With all its struggles and triumphs, daily ordinary beauty and profound moments of earth shaking AHA’s!: your life is sublime.  It’s so clear to me that you are too.  I always, always hope you are coming to celebrate yourself and be in awe more.  I hope you can see some of what I see – that everything that you specifically experience is so wildly worthy, beautiful and rich, rich, rich.   

I’m celebrating today. I’m celebrating my divine, sublime life and I’m celebrating you. Thank you for all you bring to my life, for all you live and for all the ways your living and loving makes everyone’s lives better. I really, really mean that. I love you.

Heart connected and shining with you,
Chris