I’m not hurrying to get things done before I die. I am relaxing into every moment of aliveness.
To gobble it up like a binge, cramming as much in as possible before it goes away, has meant living in a state of lack. Which means no matter how much I cram in, there’s always the sense of never enough. And that has inevitably translated into a sense that I myself am not enough.
Everyone I’ve ever talked to about this can relate to having had a feeling of “there’s not enough,” or “I’m not enough.” I think it’s part of the human experience and the illusion of separation. More and more science backs up the truth we can all feel on some level – that everything is connected and ultimately made of the same thing, and so ultimately everything is one life force expressing itself in many forms. But in our day-to-day human experience, we feel separate. And lacking. We feel that we have to get what we need from someone or something “out there.“ And we mistakenly identify with the idea of lack.
I’m waking up out of that virtual reality. That false identity. I’m the fish finally experiencing the unfathomably abundant water all around it. I’m the fish realizing it is a part of the vast ocean of unending, creative life force. There is enough. I am enough. I am the Enoughness, expressed. Everything is. You too.
Awake to this Infinite Fullness, I’m amazed to see how many of my actions were driven from this sense of lack. Now that I know there is enough, that I AM enough, I never have to cram food, rush to “get,” speed on the freeway, know the “right” answer, freak out over the exact wording, go against what feels right to me, pretend to be or feel something I’m not, try to manipulate myself or others, or attempt to control or convince anyone of anything, including myself.
Now that I know there is enough, I don’t have to do any of that anymore, because there is more than enough food, time, opportunity, safety, health, approval, money, love and belonging – right here where I am standing. Or swimming, floating, basking……… 😉 We are such cute little fishies! We are such a magnificent ocean.
