I. A.m. T.h.e. S.p.a.c.e. B.e.t.w.e.e.n. M.y. T.h.o.u.g.h.t.s.
Invisible Presence, Aware. The particular Movement of the mind doesn’t Truly Matter. Histories come and go. Eras, galaxies, individuals and their stories. None of it Personal. All expressions of the possible within the Alive Cosmos of the Eternal Beingness – The Timeless Witness to Everything. That Invisible Presence is what will always Exist. That is the Nearest things to a true Me or a true You that we can find. We are not our Thoughts. Maybe not even our feeling Hearts. But the constant, Open space that allows it all to Unfold in. A Glorious, Shining space that Holds and adores, animates and Thrives every Single, holy thought, story, creation – and is none of them at all.
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Inspired by a recent session with a client who realized that her job (LIFE) might become a lot easier and give her more freedom if she treated it as an experiment in just enjoying her experience!
I know right? As IF! I mean, we’re talking about ME here! 😉
You remember the movie, “The Matrix?” There’s that scene where Morpheus and Neo “upload” themselves into the mind program where there is a martial arts dojo. Morpheus is going to teach Neo how to apply all the kung fu that Neo just learned in theory. Then they get busy with some super impressive, physics-defying kung fu practice. The point is for Neo to learn that all the rules of the physical world don’t actually apply in the matrix, the mind world. At one point, Neo stops in their practice to bend over and catch his breath. Morpheus leans close to Neo and asks quietly, “You think that’s air your breathing now?” Neo is quietly shocked into remembering that he is in a computer program – there are no actual physical limitations in the program but his mind is used to them so he keeps playing by those rules. He catching his breathe to let his physical body rest, but his body isn’t even part of the exercise. It’s all being played out in his mind.
It’s like that for all of us. We’re used to thinking about things in a certain way. Thinking they’re real. If Neo was doing kung fu fighting with his actual body, well then yes – he would need to catch his breath. And he would behave in a certain way and adhere to the laws of physics or else he would definitely get hurt. If he tried to run up a wall, float in the air to land a kick, jump over a ravine – his body wouldn’t be able to perform what his unlimited imagination suggested.
When I was a kid, it made sense to adhere to the physical rules of my household (and family and school and society) or else I got hurt. One of the rules was I needed to see myself as inferior, impaired, weak, and always trying to make up for my inherent lack of value. (That is so off from the truth about me or anyone that it makes me feel icky just to write that!) So many of us have similar versions of that misconception. “Who do you think you are?!” our elders might demand, implying that we are in truth nobody and definitely not entitled to love ourselves. Love yourself?! That’s clearly conceited!! And clearly conceited people are bad people, have no character and “they’ll get their come-uppance!” “Don’t get too full of yourself !” Blah blah blah. We can see that there are SOO many “rules” that we learned and still adhere to even though if we stop and think about it, those rules aren’t true.
I got into the habit of thinking I suck. For a long time in my childhood it was safer for me to believe that and behave accordingly. But lately I am really, really waking up to seeing how that way of thinking is just a habit. I keep sucking in the “air” like Neo when there is no air. I keep “sucking” even though there is no suck!
There. Is. No. Suck. I just thought there was for a really long time. Now I have the happy adventure of discovering what is left when I stop “sucking” false air.
And now, dear friends, please join me in a deep breath of fresh, life-giving, REAL AIR and all the freedom that comes with that!
Love, CB
Okay I am happily embracing my nerdy self right now! I had to include these clips from the Matrix! If you want a totally immature humor giggle, click the first image/video! If you are an actual Matrix fan and or/geek and want to watch that actual cool scene again where Morpheus asks Neo if he thinks that’s air he’s breathing now, click the second picture/video!
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It helps so much when we can get out of our heads. Otherwise, we wind up in a trance, stuck in a world of the same-same thoughts in between our ears. It can seem so real. As if that closed system is actually fact. So easy to obsess on “the problem.”
In the past I’ve been super scared that I won’t ever be able to solve or figure out the problem. I think part of me felt that if I stopped obsessing it would get worse. We think the worry is what is keeping the problem in check. Or we get scared that there really isn’t any way out of the problem, ever. So we don’t even dare to really look at the possibility of not being consumed by it.
I didn’t know it was an option to put “the problem” down. Or at least see it from a new angle. You know the story of the tar baby…? The more I engaged with the thoughts, looked at the thoughts, and wrestled with the thoughts, the more stuck on the thoughts I got.
Life can be easier. It can feel better, more spacious and more possible. Having a coach really helps to move out of that sticky anxiety and into spacious ease. It’s just straight up helpful to have a partner to reflect back to you. A good listener who sees clearly can offer a new perspective that makes almost literally a world of difference. I hope you’ll come see me if you’re feeling stuck or scared or just want to feel better, more easeful.
Oh, and simple “art” is an option as a tool in our sessions. Art is such an easy, immediate way to get out of your head. It helps us to let go of the same-same, obsessive thinking and learn to feel for and follow something that feels more alive and spacious.
It also let’s us talk about energy, patterns and the transient nature of emotions, thoughts and perspectives. I have several folks that are enjoying art as a tool even in zoom sessions. I just wanted to make sure you know that using art as a doorway is available as an option. Crayons on paper, writing, gentle moving of the body, etc – some or all of that can always be included in our conversations if that appeals.
If you or someone you know could use a helper to see clear of some anxiety, worry, problem-fixation, fear, self-doubt or anything you or they are struggling and suffering through, I would love to help. If you’re not sure, please give me a call and I’m happy to answer your questions.
Lastly, I just want to say that my work, these conversations I have with you, bring me truly immense joy! There is no way I could NOT be doing this work. I delight in the expansion with you. I hope you’ll come play in the spaciousness and love with me.
